{ A birthday card I bought for my sister. }
These days I'm thinking a lot about how I came to be who I am, the good as much as the bad. It's a big topic to address, because you're not likely to be objective, right? It's all about flashes of memory, feelings and "he said, she said". Assessing the past is like giving yourself a free card to draw whatever conclusion you need to draw - to remain who you are today, or to promote change.
I want change. Which probably means the change has already happened, I'm just not sure how to express it yet.
It's easy to blame things on your childhood and growing up, because there are so many factors that are - were - out of your control. But I don't think laying your fate in the hands of your past however tempting that might be is fair. I think it's also about facing what conclusions you drew from events that happened, because these conclusions you can change. If you don't you're bound to draw them over and over again, which might not necessarily be good.
In my case I drew a lot of conclusions that has made an impact on how I view myself as well as others that's not good for me. I can see why that happened, and I can see that the conditions of my life aren't the same anymore - unless I want them to be. I can't change my past, but how I react on things important to myself I can. And I will.
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